365 days of aRt. DAY SEVENTY-SIX.

in an effort to let go
to let soul surround me and ground my being
i find myself seated, breathing heavily.
trying and trying, with nothing to find
it's like consciousness colliding with spirit divine.
i am searching and it hurts
when the practice doesn't work at first,
so slowly i get worked up
and search for love but it's lost.
searching takes me back roads
to where i'm trying to go,
so i change my mode of thinking.
it's in the non-being.
in looking, i'm not seeing.
so i sit patiently waiting
for the voice that's been trying to reach me.
softly it speaks and resonates the deep parts of my beliefs,
which are only beliefs.
i let go, trusting to be held by the hand that makes me whole.
and the darkness below doesn't grow from the trees,
it moves within me.
a way of merging material being to shapeless eternity.
one beautiful entity of entire divinity.

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To all the teachers in my life, THANK YOU! To the ancient ones that walked in wisdom, the enlightened ones, the gurus, NAMASTE! We are lead by your example. We see peace within your soul and recognize our own uncovered beauty. It is of great karma/luck/destiny/blessing to happen upon a mentor that helps to guide us toward our inner vision, our path, our life's truth. It is such a mentor that has taught me one of my most important lessons yet, one I work on everyday of my life... to let go -- TO TURN THE CUP OVER, as he says. I find myself struggling to not worry, fear, stress, or lose faith. I have to TRY not to get caught up in expectations and frustration. But let me just say that there are glimpses, moments of clarity when I stop resisting. Moments when I stop TRYING to surrender and actually do. Those moments, few and far between, are the most beautiful. They reveal a little piece of the calm in the chaos. I laugh at myself, the mess I created, and sit in absolute gratitude for life. It seems like the times when I struggle against surrender the most, are the times when the lesson is most needed. Let go. Stop resisting and start resting in peace.