365 dAys of aRt. DAY ELEVEN.

there's familiarity in every room
every space
and wall
holds a memory
thicker than smoke
and i choke them in
and feel suffocated
by a life not my own
why do we call this home?

Stuck. Have you ever felt that feeling, the feeling to be stuck? Maybe you've been stuck in a cubicle with faux walls that kept feeling smaller. Or maybe you've felt stuck in a relationship, with no compromise and no room for budge on either end. Me, I've felt stuck in all kinds of places -- in my studies, in my career choices. I've even literally been stuck on a train during a four hour daily commute to and from work. Daily, as in every day for nine months. I've done things and put up with things I haven't wanted to -- all on the basis of faith. Faith, that things will get better. I've even been stuck with my personal definition of home. It took me years to recognize that home, for me, wasn't where I grew up. That the idea of home, was gone. Zach Braff explained this perfectly in his movie, Garden State, by saying that the lost idea of home and feeling homesick for a place that doesn't even exist is like going through a right of passage. You feel this feeling of stuck-ness and feel lost just like everyone else, until, you're able to create a new idea of home for yourself. Maybe it's time for you to do the same, with whatever the situation may be. It's time to recreate a situation in which you feel stuck. It's time to become un-stuck. Question the things that are holding you back.