365 days of aRt. DAY SIXTY-NINE.

i let you kiss me with my head turned
did you see me cry?
i use my stubbornness to cover up
insecurities tonight
and if you wait
i'll walk away
because that's how i handle these things
myself, i can't compromise
this love has got me down on my knees
against the wall where i left you
i remember your face
i drove till my insides were empty
fading in and out of this place
it's just another time i've fallen down
just one more time i've left you out
don't leave me
because i need you now
give me tonight and i'll come around.

Blog about the piece:
It's so easy to walk away sometimes. Not all the time of course but sometimes when we're in a place that challenges us or really questions who we are, we would rather walk away then trudge through it. I know that I have always been this way in relationships. I would dedicate myself to loving in the fullest way but when there was a problem or something to work on, I would just walk away -- put on my traveling gypsy shoes and go. Now I am in a place that deserves patience. That deserves the dedication of working things out (not to say past relationships weren't worth it). But I have definitely come to a place in my life where walking away is no longer the answer. I face my inner truth daily and grow by it. It's a wonderful feeling to know that I can be here fully, live in my own happiness and not have to walk away to feel better.